because my hometown computer cannot type mandarin. =.=
Recently
I'm s0 emo-ING
felt helpless
heart broken
final is coming soon and I have to do my assign
but my laptop got so much problem
Sometimes, I wish I can easily to cry
drop few tears, release my stress
but I know I'm not that type of person like to cry.
but I can felt my tears when I totally lost of my mind...
I like to laugh with everyone if compare to cry alone.
Recently I always show my BLACK-faces to my friends
I also dunno how to control my feeling already.
Sometimes I just want to be alone to emo, but I don't really like that.
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Last year, my grandma passed away.
she just passed away last two week, if not mistaken.
If looking back her place where she slept
what I'm thinking.... I also dunno....
my eldest sister more closer with my grandma all the times
I hope she will getting better and take times to forgot the pain.
maybe I'm a bad grand-daughter...
I'm a weird kid, dunno how to respect people when I still a kid.
Even teenager life I also a weird person.
Maybe this kind of personality, I didn't really much care about my family.
but who knows my pain when I'm alone most of the times?
before my grandma passed away one week before
luckily I stayed at home for week...
to look after her...
thanks to her whatever she done for me and my siblings as well...
maybe I not really talk much with her
I dun really understand my grandma so much...
I not the type of person like to talk
a person who always hide true feeling inside my deepest side...
I like to laugh always
so that I can reduce my dark side.
**sorry if got a lot of broken english =.=
for GAKUTO-san
I really like your voice so much~
I always listening your voice when I'm in bad mood
I never like a idol until like this
always talk about idol, listening and repeating the song all the times
and draw the portrait =D
If I getting marry, IF possible...
I will use GACKT's song (Loveletter) as my theme song. =D
I think I will use that song also? LOLx
He shows his tender a lot with this love song.
that's the part I like GACKT-san so muchhhhhHHHH.
I will never forgot him till the end....
but the most important part
GACKT-san's voice heal my my broken heart when the one I like ignored me that time
hahahahahahahahahHAHAHAHHAAAAAAAA
seem crazy?
but this is the reason I like GACKT-san until today
lalalala~~~
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